Finding Your Rainbow Program 
Charlotte, North Carolina

A rainbow baby is the understanding that the beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of the storm. When a rainbow appears, it doesn't mean the storm never happened of that the family is not still dealing with the aftermath

Baby Shepherd

“With this sweet rainbow baby we have found that there is hope and even the darkest of moments can be redeemed. With our first miscarriage my husband ran from the pain and didn’t grieve and wanted to fix me. It made things so much harder. With our second loss we both learned that grieving was necessary and in order to experience the greatest of joys, we must also allow ourselves to experience the aches and deep pain of the darkest moments. Today we walk in the joy and hope of what is to come. We still feel the sting of loss but the rainbow is a promise of the joy to come… and we are beyond grateful and blessed to have this miracle arriving in just 2 months! The road here has been so so difficult. I think the secondary infertility was worse than the years of infertility before we got pregnant the first time. But here I am typing this while I feel this little guy moving wildly in my belly, and the pain and anguish and desperation I felt during the season of longing and waiting seems to fade and feel like years ago because of this beautiful rainbow on the horizon that I will never stop thanking God for. It will never be lost on me the miracle I have in this baby. I recognize so many are waiting on their miracle right now and this breaks me inside over and over. May my journey help me love those better than I ever could if I had never experience the pain of loss and waiting. 

Finding your Rainbow Program Application 

Baby Maeve

“With this rainbow, We have found how strong I truly am/ We truly are. Losing a much wanted child that way, literally breaks your soul, just like the repeated negative pregnancy tests. It is so hard to see past the negative thoughts of not being good enough to hold tightly to such a blessing from God. This growing rainbow has also taught me to find the JOY again. Every ache, pain and glorious kick is such a wonderful sensation for me now as I wrap up this pregnancy. Sometimes I wish I could stay pregnant forever (Hahaha). It is that reassurance that I am very blessed to carry our last little blessing from God and is a smile from our angel baby from above.

This means a proper remembrance and celebration of a job well done! It is fitting that I found this program on St. Patrick's Day--what would of been our angel baby's birthday! I am not sure if I can nominate myself/my family as the mom but I will take the opportunity regardless to remember our Patrick who we lost at 14 weeks unexpectedly. Since my hubby and I are both healthcare providers, it hit extra hard since we couldn't "save" our child. It was also a blow in the fact that my hubby is career military and headed for his 5th deployment overseas. We didn't want to send our family story to end with an angel baby just in case my hubby was not able to return from deployment. We had many, many months of mourning Patrick and negative pregnancy tests. Then suddenly out of the blue this past Fall, that super surprising positive test saying our rainbow baby was on the way! These rainbow baby newborn photos would indeed be a high five and fulfillment of our love language--photos are so important to us. I also find it so neat that in your rainbow pictures, our angel baby Patrick gets that remembrance as the rainbow next to his future brother or sister.”